Update

In case anyone actually still reads this blog, first, I am sorry for the cease fire on posts! The last post, cryptic and short as it was, really gets to the heart of the matter, but the down shot is that Jeff and I are taking a bit of a break from partnered practice. About a month ago I needed a week or two or so off to regroup, get sleep, and get myself back into a normal state of mental well-being, but after those two weeks Jeff himself felt like he needed a bit more time to sort some things out in his own personal life. So while I am, of course, dying to get back to practice, I have to make sure he has some space to work through everything. In the mean time, to keep myself from getting depressed and going crazy, I've taken a couple of lessons with Simeon (very helpful), practiced a bit on my own, and gone out social dancing. I also recently was offered and accepted a new job, and so will be starting a new position in downtown Seattle in the middle of next month, which I am very excited about. Part of my stress in the past month was related to the interview, application process, and general excitement surrounding it, so now that I have the position and I have a better sense of what my career is going to look like going forward, I am feeling much better about it all.

When we will resume is really up in the air at this point. While there is no doubt I miss it a great deal, I am trying very hard not to let anything get in the way of my enthusiasm and love for the dancing. It's actually been very tough for me lately, so I just keep stepping back, looking at the big picture, and refocusing on what it is that brings me joy.

In the words of Oscar Wilde...

"It is better to have a permanent income than to be fascinating."